Excitement, Adrenalin , happiness, fear, all this are
feelings that come to to mind when I think about how photography makes me feel.
I still remember being a kid and looking at my Dad’s old Life magazine photos and
having all those same feelings transmitted to me from those images. It wasn’t
till I was 21 that I decided to join a photography group that was all about lab
work and Black and white photography, I
was hooked ! it was like a drug I dreamed about photos, I was in the streets
looking at for photos, it was all I could think of and do. Then I actually
started doing weddings by myself with lots of skill but little equipment
pictures were a hit, I got hires to do two more weddings in 2 months and then family
and reality snuck in, I realized I had
to stop dreaming about photos and finish my major to graduate college soon,
which demanded a lot of time and effort, I was an accounting major in one of
the top schools in the country (Venezuela) if I wanted to finfish my major I
had to be committed to school, which
translates in a lot of hours studying and no time for wedding shoots or photos.
Then another turn I meet the love of my life and move 500,000 miles to New
York, there the bug starts again, but again I have to find a job an so I start
working as a full time accountant which requires long work days at times and
you guessed it , not much time for photography. Fast forward 2012 I have a
great job, awesome husband and something I love more than Mac and Cheese,
Photos or anything on this earth, my 11 month old son David.
Being a mom makes you think about all the wonderful things
you want your baby to do and experience, and how you want them to dream and
live life to the fullest. That’s when I thought about my own life, what kind of
hypocrite would I be if I told my kid to follow his dreams, when I did not
follow my own or did not even try ? Yes, I have a wonderful life, but was that
what I wanted. Don’t get me wrong, I like working as an accountant, but somehow
it was not enough, at least it did not feel like it was.
So here I’m, ready for the journey, where am I going ? To a
future where I can proudly call myself a photographer, no more excuses, no more
buts, and I’ll record every step of the journey to share my experience
with photographers or whomever wants to join me.
